Getting through the hard days

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

I got sick last week. I wasn't too sick so I didn't ask Chris to stay home but at the end of the day I was exhausted; mentally and physically. When Chris got home from work, we had dinner then I asked to be excused. That night I came to the Lord sobbing. I told Him "Lord, I am soooo tired. This mothering, training, and dying to self thing is too hard. I am selfish. I want to rest whenever I need to, take shower whenever I feel need to, and go to the bath room alone whenever I have to; I can't give and give and give... " 
And He answered, "Kiki, you don't have to give and give and give. You have the choice to receive."

And these are the Words that I received that night:
1 Corinthians 4:8-13
"Love is patient,
love is kind.
It does not envy,
it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It does not dishonor others,
it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues,they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

I cried again after reading the Words. This time I cried because I realized how weak, selfish, and sinful I am yet My Heavenly Father still patiently hears, cares, and loves me. In case you are wondering, He loves and cares about you too. We just have to run to Him and ask for His love, His Words, His joy, His peace, His power, and His grace. 

Psalm 124:8 "Our help is in the name of the Lord, Who made heaven and earth."

My talented designer friend Siska @ Eve & Artistry kindly made the verses into beautiful print for me to print and put into a frame. Thank you, sister! You can get the free print here


  1. thank you for sharing this, kiki ... i know some days are really tough, even for me with 1 kid. But I am just across the street if you need anything. Your boys are always welcomed to play & eat here. Hugssss...

  2. Awwww Thank you sister! I wasn't sure if the boys got the virus or not so I didn't dare to drop them off. :D Thank you for praying for us!

  3. Kiki, hang in there. Hope you feel better soon.