Friday, May 13, 2011

I am back! Well... getting there at least. 

I've been having a really difficult time the past 3 weeks after giving birth.  I had anemia due to iron deficiency, which caused severe headaches and leg pains. I barely function for many days. I never knew headaches can be so painful. It feels like someone keep pounding all over my head with hammer.  In addition, Chris also had not been feeling well due to lack of sleep and coughing. And I got the coughing too. Emotionally, the pain affected me pretty bad. I cried a lot, became super sensitive and not my regular old self.

In the middle of my struggle, I was reminded of Job. Satan was trying to destroy me and my family, physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I have to fight back with His Words, prayers and thanksgiving. The hardest time was when I have to watch Wesley struggled to take a breath due to his coughing. 

I wish I can say through out these.... I remain praising the Lord but NO. There were times that I cried out: "Lord, I don't understand......" His answer came quick: "Kiki, cast your anxiety on Me because I cares for you" - 1 Peter 5:7

It's only by His grace, the prayers, support, and encouragement of my family and faithful friends that I am back on the road to recovery.
I was reading the first few passages of Psalm with Max yesterday and the verses below describes exactly what I feel: "I call out to the LORD, and He answers me from his holy mountain. I lie down and sleep; I wake again, because the LORD sustains me." Psalm 3:4-5

May you too experience God's grace, power, and love as you walk with Him


  1. Ci Kiki, I'll be praying for you and your family. Pray that He will give you comfort, strength and hope. I hope you will feel better soon! Take care.